Need Sleep

Eric had a bad night last night and I did not get much sleep last night. Then Eric thew an hour and a half hissy fit because I would not take him to his day program today, which was closed for the holiday. I really need to sleep tonight, so I am praying that Eric sleeps tonight. Good night all.

My Wall

Today I hit my wall.  There is not a break in sight until August 5th.  Eric is home the rest of the week. I am hoping that with the stitches coming out tomorrow that things might ease up a bit.  I am not sure how long it will take for my left hand to be the new best it can be.  To cope I did a lot of weaving and 1 handed cleaning, I am not sure why this helps but it does. I will make it through this 5 minutes at a time.  

An Unwelcome Guest

Today makes the arrival of a very unwelcome guest in our home.  Eric's cold of 10 days has turned into a secondary infection and all that goes along with it. Right now I am waiting to run the first load of eyrpy laundry to finish so that I can start the second load before bed tonight.  I am hoping that Eric sleeps tonight. 

I have not had much energy for spinning in the Tour de Fleece today, I only spun 2/3's of a 4 ounce braid. I did manage to get 2 of the 3 skeins I spun yesterday soaked and thwacked.  They are drying in the garage tonight. The birds living on the patio don't like the sound of thwacking and fly away as soon as they hear me coming outside.  I am trying to keep up with the soaking and thwacking of the newly spun yarn so that at the end of the month I am not left with an overflowing sink of yarn that needs finishing.  

To tell you how tired I am. John asked what I wanted for dinner tonight and I asked for a half of a roast beef sandwich. He came in the door and announced that instead of mayo on my sandwich, he had them put on soy sauce. My reaction was, oh well I will just try something new, heck I might even like it. I was too tired to noticed that he pick up my 2 favorite dishes from my favorite Chinese restaurant, China Phoenix. I have got a very wonderful husband.  

I plan on spending the day resting with Eric tomorrow. This run of days with an average of 4 hours of sleep a night is beginning to get to me.  I really don't know if that has to do with giving up cola or not being 30 any more.  All I know is that my body has decided that it needs more sleep.  

No Caffeine

Around 2:30 this morning Eric started eyrping. I must say that the LG washer handled all 3 loads with ease.  I also had my first Eric sick day without soda. It was a very long day.  I missed the sugar and caffeine rush that kept me going.  I did not even have energy to knit. The good news is that the eyrping has stopped and all that I have to deal with is the cold de jour tomorrow.  

Eric and I will be home again tomorrow and I will need to cancel one appointment.  I will also have to write and finish knitting my Thursday's class. It's a good thing that I love modular knitting and know a decent amount about modular knitting.  

My biggest hope that Eric sleeps tonight.  

Busy, Busy, Sore

There have been a lot of late nights with Eric.  Post viral asthma has struck with a vengence.  That has lead to a lot of naps and not much getting done around here.  This has also lead to a flare up for me, right now my elbows and ankles are not on friendly terms with me.   I know things will get better when Eric feels better.  

Time Warp

There comes a time in every moms lives called the time warp.  I have entered the time warp. It comes when Eric gets into a cycle of getting sick, recovering some then going back to his program.  Then I just begin to reset my routine, but have not fully recovered from the long nights and broken sleep. Then Eric gets sick again.  After 2 or 3 cycles of this the time warp kicks in. 

I am in the time warp right now.  So that I have trouble sleeping more then 3 hours at a time. So I land up talking a lot of naps.  My meal schedule is so off too, sometimes breakfast at 6 or 7 lunch at 3 pm and then I am not ready for dinner at 6pm so I have an appetizer for dinner. Then I tend to snack too much late at night. 

I am hoping that this cold is the last one Eric will have for a while. I spent the day cleaning and doing laundry.  I am still exhausted but am too hyper to sleep. So I tried spinning lace weight yarn before dinner.  After dinner I finished knitting 2 hats and cast on one more so far.   I am hoping that Eric will sleep tonight and that I can unwind to sleep. I really want to break this cycle.  I am tired of being out of sync. 

The Rollercoaster

Eric is on the mend after being sick for a few days. What ever this bug was, it brought on a few late night/ very early morning asthma episodes.  I am trying to unwind from the most recent one.  For some reason in the middle of the night they take longer to get under control. This one took about 90 minutes to get under control. Then wave 2 of the series of El Niño inspired storms hit and that took a few more minutes to resettle Eric down.  

It is now just past 2 am and I feel wide away and sleepy at the same time.  I am too tired to knit or spin yet too wide awake to sleep.  The physical therapy seems to be working, I was able to use the spinning wheel for the first time since the accident. 

I think that I am finally unwinding and will try some more sleep. Later today I plan on working on my indoor todo list and then do errands once the rain slows down. Have a wonderful and productive day. 

Frustrated

I am feeling so overwhelmed lately. It seems to me that Eric has been having a lot of sick days and down days with no program. Before I can even recoup from the last time, it seems that he is sick or off from program yet again. I have fallen asleep 5 days in a row on the couch before Eric. Thank goodness John is there to pick up my slack and getting Eric ready for sleep.

The holidays start tomorrow night. The house is not cleaned nor is a holiday dinner in the planning stages, although I did remember to order the challah. I did manage to do something for the holidays. To tell you the truth and I know this sounds so bad, but I would be happy cooking frozen fish and chips for dinner tomorrow. This has left me feeling angry at myself for being such a wimp. I get angry at myself for not setting the perfect holiday table and spending days cooking just the right things. This is not how to run a proper household. I am just tired and worn out.  I know that today or tomorrow I will find the energy to make my way to the market. I think I can get away with making a small roast, golden carrots and a kugel for 2. This is all the cooking I can muster myself to do.

Did I also mention that the deconstruction on the kitchen starts in 12 days and I have the 3/4's of the kitchen left to pack. Eric does not go back to program until Wednesday. Did I mention that I am not 30 anymore, I seemed to handle things so much better with little or no sleep back then. I know that this is my very tired self talking, but right now I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I am hoping for a happier and healthier New Year, with more sleep. In case I don't blog tomorrow, I am going to wish everyone and Happy and Healthy New Year. La Shana Tova.

On the Road to Recovery

Eric is doing better. He is back on formula again.  To say it was a rough week is an understatement.  I hope I really get time to recharge before Eric gets sick again.  I really hate being to tired to move or knit at the end of the day.  

We picked out the kitchen counter for the remodel today.  Now all I need to do is finish packing up the kitchen and guest bathroom. Empty the pantry floor.  Get the rest of the stuff ordered. Easy peasy, I think.  

Well I have more to say, but I am just too tired to type anymore.  

Tired

I have not been writing much lately. I seem to be to tired when I usually write my blog. The following is NOT a new years resolution. I have been trying to get to the gym 6 days a week to ride the recumbent bike. I really wanted to fix up my bike from the 1970's and ride around the neighborhood. But the streets are not as safe for bike riding as John would like, so I head to the gym. I am not doing this for anyone but me. I just think I need to move more. My initial goal was 15 minutes a day and now I do 45 minutes a day.

I am also walking more. When I got my FitBit in June,  I was doing 2 to 3 thousand steps a day. Now my daily goal is 11,000 steps a day, which I meet 6 out of 7 days last week.  With a long term goal of 100,000 steps a week.

So considering how out of shape I am this is enough to make me tired. Throw in a few long nights with Eric and a few flare ups,  you can see why I have been so tired. Some nights I am too tired to knit or spin, so a little less knitting is getting done. I am needing a shot of caffeine in the late afternoon to make it to bedtime. Somehow Eric will not go for a 4 pm bedtime. I really can't figure out why.

My long term hope is to have a little more energy. 

Frustration

Right now I'm pretty frustrated Eric has been getting sick on a very regular basis we seem to have been having about four days to recoup between the next time he gets sick. However, this week we got him back to program and then the next day he's home with a cold. I'm really tired of the moms and dads who send their kids to school or day programs knowing that their kids are sick. How do you guys feel about that?

I can't be the only mom in the world with this gripe. Is Tucson just unusual in that the parents always send their kids sick? Is this happening in your neighborhood schools and they programs too?

Part of this frustration is that I am worn down and tired. I would like to be able to get out of the house a little bit more and do things. It seems lately by the time I get Eric back on his feet I'm just too tired to go out and do the shopping I need to do or want to do. I know we're just going through a rough patch right now but I'm still tired. I am hoping things will get better and that he'll be going to his program more often. Right now I just have to cope and be cheerful about it.

I know it's not Eric's fault that he's getting sick. I blame it on the parents who send their kids sick all the time. I wish they wouldn't be so short sighted and only see how it affects them and their days. I wish they would look at the global picture and see that if they send their child sick, that they're going to get other kids sick and other people sick. It's not fair to the rest of the world if you know your kid is sick to send them to program. I guess all I'm asking for is a little common sense. That seems to be in short supply these days.

Well it is time to get back to Eric and squeeze in a few minutes for lunch I hope everybody's day is going well.