I can Not Unwind

Eric is feeling better and sleeping, he will go to program tomorrow. I on the other hand can not unwind enough to go to sleep. This is following the usual pattern. So I will listen to some music and hope that it will be enough to to go to sleep.

For almost 24 hours my soul focus has been Eric and I am having trouble shifting back to me. In the past 24 hours I have missed a going away party for Scott Z. who got a great promotion. I missed sitting around with friends just sitting, chatting and knitting. I seem to miss so much when Eric is not feeling well. There just seems to be no balance in my life.

I never wanted to be a nurse when I was growing up. Yet I seem to have spent a large part of the last 3 decades doing just that. Life can be so strange sometimes. My kids have taken me places that I would have never thought of going or doing and for that I thank them.

The School Year has Begun

The school year has begun for Eric. Today was his first day back. I was so glad that we went out to meet the bus 20 minutes before the scheduled pick up time, because the driver was 10 minutes early. Apparently the school bus company and the school district do not see eye to eye on the bus schedule. I think I will go with what the bus driver says so I do not have to be mommy taxi for the school year. There are just somethings I have to roll with and this is one of them.

I thought I had a meeting today, but showed up 1 week early. Oops! So as long as I was out I went to Trader Joe's and did some shopping for things I forgot yesterday. Of course since it was Eric's first day back to school I had to do some knitting; as of 6:30 pm I have gone through 1 skein of yarn. Not to worry though I have a lot more yarn to go.

I did go through a lot of papers and found the floor of my closet where they had been tossed. After filling up the shredder basket 1 1/2 times today I got down to the things that need to be filed. I also found over a dozen peach stickers apparently no one had told me that I could trade 12 of them for a case of diapers. Of course I found this out the day after I place the last order. Timing is everything an I really don't have my timing down pat today.

I did do something that I have not done since Eric was a baby this week. I took 2 shifts of skilled nursing for Eric. I guess it was really past time for extra help with Eric. I find myself relaxed and less stressed. I have not been this relaxed since my few days with Teri. I see more skilled nursing shifts in our future. It is very hard to see the stress when I am in the middle of it.

I have just gotten the call that means it is time to make dinner. So have a great evening and enjoy your families.