Changes

Life after we said goodbye to Eric have been strange and at times overwhelming.  Today would have been Eric’s  birthday.  We would normally wake up early and wake him up with the birthday guy singing happy birthday and then start the day. We would play the birthday song as much as possible during the day and the last time at bedtime.  Today John and I knew we had to play the birthday song.  I finally got the courage about 8:00pm.  We played the song for Eric and cried.

Going out to eat is different too.  We do not have to decide what to eat before we get to the restaurant.   Then order as soon as we sit down. We can actually look at the menu and possibly try something different. There have been times when we look at each other thinking that we have to hurry up and eat so we can take over Eric care.  Then it dawns on us that Eric has said his final goodbye to us.  We take a deep breath and comment on how strange this all is.  Then relax a bit.

Another time I  remembered how I used to knit scarfs while sitting on a rock at the end of the driveway.  Thinking about how much Eric loved to ride the bus with Don, the bus driver. That memory left me smiling for hours.

Also I  don’t know how I managed it but I kept to my eating plan while Eric was in hospice. I managed to exercise and eat right.  Now I am down another size.  I will have a lot of clothing going to Goodwill. I do not have any pants in the next size down and will need to go  shopping.  Thank goodness I have the technology for that. I just need a good body day.

My need to create is slowly coming back. I have a hand knit shawl with hand spun yarn almost finished. I also have a scarf on the loom, that is also halfway done. I hope to work down my back log.

I could have not done any of this without you and you support. So a huge thank you.

Birthdays

This week I turn 50. It is a time of new beginnings. Every year I re-evaluate my life. Every 5 years I make a change and every 10 years I try to make a major change . At 25, I got married. At 30, I had given birth to the last of my two beautiful children. At 35, I moved to Tucson, Arizona with my husband and 2 kids. At 40, I decided to immerse myself in education by taking religious studies classes and increasing the number of books I read. At 45, I learned to knit... And now, at 50, this dear reader is the year of major change for me.

My oldest child is heading off to law school in a few months and I strongly suspect that this will be our last great mother- daughter time. I know that it will come in bits and pieces from now on and I will really miss the good times I enjoy with my daughter, she is a blessing in my life.

My youngest is starting down the road of 12+ , its a road for the few in our society that are severely disabled and do not have much of a chance for independence. It's one last ditch effort of the school system to get the young adults to their highest potential.

So in the mists of all this chaos, I have decided to use my creative energy to start an on-line business and blog, my major change for the big 5-0. So come and join me on this journey though 50+. In addition to this blog, you can find me on ArtFire.com at my online shop, www.artfire.com/users/Handmade~by~Sheri, and you can follow me on twitter at @skaro964. I have no idea where any of this is going, but that resembles my life in general.